November

If it could only be that voice that is not of one, but one of many. I could carry the sound of that voice to this place i know so well.
Its beneathe the lung that breathes and the liver that shivers for its feast upon this voice that echoes amoung his body. I could love such a being. But a being that could be loved as though he were a beast of many.
Running scared of this cause, im latent to his heart and plungent to his mind. I could be to him as a rose on the snow that has beauty breathing out from its thorns to caputure one.
And to tear his flesh; the beloved that drips the red that is unseen to this sactum.
Like red rain drops to the door of this holy place. I not yet ready--
But ready to hold the hand of this sollitude.
What shall i seek, for he is here and devoted.As for another, he seeks the comfort of the soft and timid. I shall not be there, but be as i may dwell ...to good fortune and lust for this body I quiver in this house of the knowing. To be taken yet again by vow.

John

In the black, i spoke to John...And the world had gone cold in his mind.
I didnt change in his mind
I had kept him warm...
John held my hand in desire for my heart and more.
His hands were little but he grasped like a Man
His embrace held me in the world i wanted to be in.
I was finally accepted in his eyes.
John was his name, but it was all fowl play.
As he arose to keep the calm
Another took his place.
In return I was stolen by another.
But i was not yet done with this life. For John had kept me alive.
So I kept him here in my heart as I kept the other in my pocket.

The Trail He Left Behind

I went to sleep-
There was a place in the world with a big black hole that closed at the mouth of the open.
I stepped into the light and began to dance in the moment of this release. I found my Love and he touched in kissed the the horizon of my sun and I followed his want up these stairs.
A disagreement had arose as my mother did oppose, to have had this love from the start.
She yelled and bellowed out the sound of hate and misery.
To be such a tyrant, i twisted her head and left her there to subside with my reason.
I Love who i love and this Love is all that i wanted.
But as i awoke he left in a haste leaving me in this place that could only displace his words with the road tracks he left behind.
I sat in the carrier and passed a dog that was half black and white.
This mother of my dear, looked down upon my feet and closed the door behind me.

I awoke-
And thus, it came true.

Future Thinking

Im in love...
But im in love with-
Him

I'am his life and his light that carries above all. Why? I never asked for such a title. But i live there.
I'm in Love with him-
Yet, I think of He...

He is my dream and my future and my way of life and prosperity. But I do not love him...yet

Him-
The one that carries a low heart and swallows death to embrace his fate. The negative surrounds him, but Iam the light.
I carry his flame for passion and embrace. I keep him alive for his heart, i have taken.

Him-
The one who walks with my heart in is throat, and speaks of myths that only his tongue believes. But his soul is decieved by this truth that kisses his hand-

But He..brings new light and awaits for my arrival, there He stands with open arms and a clear mind for happiness and Love.

He could love me
I could love He at first sight. But will We ever be?
It is by choice or by chance..life will lead Us togther.

As for Him...I see only death in his path, in which he will only take me.
Our Love is strong and there we stand. The grim matter of this heart...

I Love two men...yet there can only be one who over comes it all-
By Lust and by Love
By Love and by Hate
By Life and by Death
By Sickness and by health
By Richer or for Poorer

Death do us never part...
She shall marry ONE-